I distinctly remember it: It was March of this year, and I’d had a few months off from shooting weddings. It was mostly because I was pregnant and January, February, and March are typically slower wedding months, but also because I didn’t get any inquires for those months. I spent my “sabbatical” with my family, going on dates with my husband, reading books, sleeping in (again mostly because I was pregnant), and hanging out with friends. I discovered that I felt rested and restored after my fall wedding season left me exhausted.
Let me paint a picture of my fall 2014: Between September and November my husband and I shot 17 weddings with one Saturday off and multiple shoots on week days. Combine that with a newly pregnant (always sick and tired) me, Nick’s full time job, and a child who constantly wants your attention and you have a storm my friends. We spent our free time with our child so she didn’t grown up resentful and aggressive from watching us edit all day and this left little time for us to connect and spend time together.
Fast forward back to March. It was a Wednesday, I was about 27 weeks pregnant and thinking about how life would look with two children. I wasn’t doing anything particularly significant, but it dawned on me – almost like a soft whisper in my ear – that something had to give.
For the last five years, I have had the joy of shooting over 40 weddings. I count it a privilege to have served my clients and an honor to have captured such a special day in their lives. It has been a dream, one that I never imagined whenever, on a whim, I started this business.
But, as a writer put it, “You’ve got to let go of the good to say yes to the best.” Well, my friends- the time has come for my best yes.
So, with a deep sense of peace, I am officially announcing that I am no longer accepting new wedding photography clients. I will be joining my husband at Nick Miller Films and I will still be shooting senior sessions and couples/engagements when they come along.
My highest priority is to build a stronger relationship with my husband everyday and to be there for my children. I have learned that the hardest but most beautiful thing we can do when facing such a decision is to give ourselves permission to do what’s best for us-no matter how others might perceive it. So, I am not “giving up”, I am letting go. I am making margin in my life for beautiful things. I’m weeding a garden so that what is left inside can flourish without being choked out.
If you have been a wedding photography client (or any client for that matter), thank you for entrusting me with your memories and letting me capture your day to the very best of my ability. If you are seeking a wedding photographer, please shoot me an email for some amazing referrals that I know will take good care of you!
I am so excited to create beautiful wedding films alongside my favorite person in this world! If you are still looking for a videographer, my husband and I would love to talk to you about your wedding. Check out Nick Miller Films for all the feels and pretty.